God, give her the strength to face further cancer treatments. look upon her with eyes of mercy, may your healing hand rest upon her, may your lifegiving powers flow into every cell of her body and into the depths of her soul, cleansing, purifying, restoring her to wholeness and strength. We ask your blessing upon the medication prescribed for AuntyS.. so that she may experience healing, and be restored to full health in mind and body.

Jesus name i pray ,

Amen.

:D

ELLO :D

hmm i finished 11 sets of science paper 1 :)

440 questions weihh! zz

damn tiredd.

damn late d ahhhhh .

its time to decide, SHOULD I GO SCHOOL OR NOT ?

i wont sleep now if im going , keep on studying until 630 xD

waah i feel damn semangatted , mentally =x

i damn crazy lor wth

i used to stay up for DRAMAS last time, not books

but now o.o

i must beeeeeeeeeeeee crazyy.

kk im off !

ciaoooooooooooooo :D

LOL ash just replied me.

i text her when she go to bed

she wake up & reply d i havent go to bed.

smart right ==

the most painful goodbyes are the ones that are never said and never explained.

Why am I so pathetic?

I'm so sick of being that naive little girl who would do anything in the world just to see you smile

oh haai orangs :)

wahsai, i tio crazy fella FU HIM >:(

u better watch out , im gonna kill you :)

sienz, studied whole day. on and off :x

its like, finish 3 paper, nap 30mins. HAHA

thn continue :x

what to do ? im ME, thats why ~

i dont think i should go to school tomorrow

hmm.

CANDY MANDY BANYAK RINDU SAYA KAN? HAHAHAHA.

shit la i macam damn high d ==

CHILLAX SUSAN. its damn late already

dont be sampat and spam fb and msn pls. :)

wow wow, i spammed my fone camera agn :x

damn shit weih. HAHA

kkk i better ciao cin ciao ~

BYEEE :)

tho shih onn you influenced me -.-

i started to use

" xin tiao tiao "

&

"ciao cin ciao"

thx to you brothaar -__-''

p / s ;

guys ,

im sorry bout my cool reply

was busy & stressed up :C

dont feel like texting anymore :/

stupid touchscreen fone

im gonna put u into tong sampah :)

Do me a favour?

if you still care about me , let me know. :(

I tried so hard to stop thinking about you ,

I tried even harder to avoid seeing you around..

I've all triedd! I keep telling myself I am over you!......

until I see your face JUST NOW :(

i wish you did

x

HI :)

School was OKAY OKAY, as usual :p

ash made me laughed like crazy gilaa. zomg.

my stomach cant take it anymore xD

BTW , today is the day we SHALL REMEMBER :)

god knows why la :D

sept28 - WHAT A DAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY TO REMEMBER :D

right peeeps? :P

coughs coughs, u know i know lar :)

hahaha.

象征胜利 ! woohoooooo :P

kk its private kay!

go to my facebook profile picture for more information HAHAHA xD

OKAY OKAY. back to nerding !

bye bloggieeeee :D

还是原来那个我 不过撂掉几公升泪所以变瘦

对着镜子我承诺 迟早我会换这张脸应对笑容

不算什么 爱错就爱错

早点认错 早一点解脱

我寂寞寂寞就好 这时候谁都别来安慰拥抱

就让我一个人去痛到 受不了伤到快疯掉

死不了就还好

我寂寞寂寞就好 你真的不用来我回忆里微笑

我就不相信我会笨到 忘不了赖着不放掉

还是原来那个你 是我自己做梦你又改变什么

再多的爱也没用 每个人有每个人的业障因果

会有什么 什么都没有

早点看破 才看的见以后

人本来就寂寞的 我总会把你戒掉

Forever ?

doesnt exist in my dictionary

someone prove it to me please?

im still waiting

x

goodbye, moments

OH HAAI :D

i was awake since just now. hahaha :)

studied geography o.o

shit, my brain didnt work well LOL

cant fully absorb geo knowledge ahaha :x

oh well :/

zomg look at the time , i shall get ready for school! heh -.-

ciao :D

Picture says a thousand words

HAH, im happy :P

OHGREAT, im stressing myself like crazy again. ahaha :)

busy weekends :(

didnt really study.. went tuitions , shopping , outing with brothers

heeeeh. im gonna be so deaaad :/

im gonna study now. SLEEP LESS FOR A WEEK.

susan tho! this is gonna end soon.. REAL SOON :D

so TAHAN kayyy! :D

you know you can do it. MHMM xD LOL :x

have to really study kao kao kao kao kao kao kao ~

thn weekend , REST.

thn PMR :D

cuz if i dont study now

confirm regret wan -.-

LAST CHANCE WEIHH.

science stream is mine. teeeeeeheeeeee :)

omg i got plans already. ahahaha after pmr :P

huhuhu :D

okok, i better off now.

CIAO CIAO :D

8 more days !

I dont feel real anymore

pimple attack ! D:

HAII :)

just got back from tuition

zomg i damn babi , i thought tuition starts at 9am

i woke up at 8 something and start panicking. LOL

i was like ZOMGGG GG MANN.

late d late d

fai fai bath chg thn piewwwwwwwww.

reached at 9am

thn cindy was like " omg susan why are u so early ? "

LOL im like WHAAT? what time start ?

9.45am -.-

im like. oh greaaaaat.. =_="

thn yee leng came, we went mamak and makan XD

thn tui start, tui end. nothing special XD

hahaha

ohh btw , the aircond KILLED ME. gaah.

gonna bring bomb next week, make the aircond go KAAABOOM.

mhmm.. =)

is it me..

or you're feeling the same way too?

:)

也许这就是爱情

该来的时候自然会来，爱情是不需要寻找的。

真爱是等待的，刻意寻找可能不是好的。

说起来，爱真的很美妙。

因为你根本不知道为什么，何时开始，我对你的感觉，不一样了。

相反的，爱情的感觉。。又甜又苦

因为爱情是。。说来就来，说走就走。

不会长久。

这些，只不过是开始而已，时间久了，感情淡了，不爱了，也是时候说再见了

有本事，你就爱我一辈子！

GOAT NIGHT ? xD

LOL. simple and nice.

i prefer this one

heheh

omg im dead tired .

imma sleep now

nighty night ! :DD

MHMM :)

HELLO :D

how's my new layout?

heeehehehe :D

thanks, nic & crazy fella :p

i know i killed ur eyes.

hahaha sorrry XD

& I choose to believe

i have faith in you, GOD :)

because i believe everything will be okay in the end, if it's not okay, it's not yet the end.

I will stay strong

and wont let anyone down ! :D

oh yesh, happy side of me is back again!

tolddd ya my emoness is gonna not gonna last more than 10mins !

hehehehhe :D

im tired :(

so tired..

until i feeel like..

sleeping... forever..

i feel so restless..

sigh..

im off..

tatas..

I was in a good mood...until i found out something i don't want to know :( sigh.

Goat Mooooooooooooling ! :D

meaning good morning in COW LANGUAGE.

mhmmm.. :) xD :D

me and my AWESOME-ness :)

aku spammed jz's cbox with my awesome-ness XD

- HAHAHAHAHA -

:x

heeh :D

omg , i was damn crazy yesterday LOL

camwhoredddd like nobody's business :)

63 pics with school uniform. HAHAH

sorry la, damn boredd weihh.

nan dak got the mood, must chichak chak abit waaan okay ! :P

LOL @ my bek chek face :x

wooots wooots my hair can be tied up alreaddy !

:DDDD

nowadays , people keep telling me about my face expression :s

they say , when i dont smile , when im not angry , when im just me.

i look like i wanna cry ! :O

whuuuuuut? whyy? LOL

LOL when im feeling :) but my face got no expression at all

they thought i wanna cry LOL damn funny :x

PLS, its like.. okay lets say when you're enjoying doing something..

ur face got no expression at all , doesnt mean that you dont feel good or you are unhappy.. maybe its just, err.. you're so into it, thats why your face is just .. FACE.

YEAAAAAA.

cause you wont be laughing like a retard while doing something right HAHAHA :x

if you get whaaaaaaat i mean ;)

LOL! omg candy, im using ur arab language :x

sometimes, when im HAPPY inside, i dont show it outside.

HAHA, dont ask why laa. cuz i dont know :x

only sometimes ! RARELY =)

just like when im MOODY inside, i dont show it outside toooo .

most of the time lar, i'll just type out , but i wont show u im sad.

at least u can still see me smiling :)

or maybe.. i act like damn hyper, and chat like crazy hyper LOL

when im OVER hyper, you know whats wrong la :x

when i let you know im sad or unhappy ..

it doesnt mean that i want you to help me.. cheer me up and stuffs..

i just needed a listener.

i dont need advice because.. i know more than you do

i know what exactly is going on

i just dont wanna face it, and overcome it. i think :s

BUTT, if u wanna cheer me up, IT WOULD BE GREAT XD

heeee, cause i needed a listener.

but you listen and cheer me up

its like BONUS.

i'll be really thankful :)

because you made my day :)

and guess what?

it happened again, yesterday night :x

I was walking around my house la, was thinking about something else

but I can be sure, im NOT feeling depressed , or emotional and stuffs.

BUT, my face got no expression, cuz im feeling empty/blank. watever you call it la haha :D

Then yeaah, jie was like " you look like you wanna cry weih "

hahaha. im like O.O whaaaaaaaat? xD

then i was like ' ahahaa you're not the first one telling me this o.o I WONDER WHY :s '

then she told me ' ohh, maybe u looked innocent, no face expression = look like wanna cry '

WOKAAAAYYY ~

this is weird :(

people around me will thought im a cry baby when my face is BLANKK! xDD

hahah GG.

so yeaah, im gonna smile non stop adi, TO SHOW that i dont wanna cry , i dont feel like crying , not at all ! :D

Whoooooooooooops.

OHHMY , i love my bloggie :)

so pretttaaaaaaaaaaay!

hahahahaha. jkjk.

waaaah GG . 243am d. bagus man.

kkk im going to bed now XD

this time for real

heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee :)

tataaaa :D

x

oh no, its 2:56am already xD

crazy fella crazy fella

my blog damn nice right :D

HEHEHEHE

:)

niteeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeees !

bow wow wow ~

zomg look at the time la susan tho !

you better go and bath now and SLEEP.

thn wake up and study!

mhmmm. :)

oh shit im talking to myself wtfish :x

kk ciao ciao xD

A smile is a curved line that sets things straight.

HEHE, MY PINKISH BLOG :)

bye , emo side of susan.

happy go lucky, WELCOME BACKK :)

p / s ;

I don't want to be stinky poo poo girl, I want to be happy flower child :DD

HIII

OH HAAI, im back againn!

i know u miss me rightttttt x)

esp YOUUU!

yeah you, crazy fella. HEEEEEEEEEE :)

btw , im here to hidupkan my blog ! :D

kk er, first of all ..

AKU, Susan THO MK selaku adik perempuan abangku.... omg-lol-wtfish cut this bm part la!

im here wishing my big brother happy bday! woohoo.

allan tho shih looong ! :)

happy sweeeeeeeeeet 22th, old man :p

LOL WTV LA , i know i damn lebih. ahaha :x

tiredd woii... just got home not long ago :s

from jaya one, FIREMANN. XD

hahaha, buffet.

damn full weihh , i think i can die adi.

stomach exploding! XD

KAABOOOM :)

OHH ANDD, IM SO SO SO SO ADDICTED TO BAKING LIFE.

life is about baking, hehehehe :D

k er, back to thursday !

TRIALS OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

we straight away start our chilling milling life. LOL

cc bball yumcha talk c sing song play ping ponggggg :D

when and where is tuition? WE DONT KNOW HEHE :)

HOHOHOH , i enjoyed bugging ning , crazy fella and tw about GIRLS :)

damn funny

they were playing rite

thn im like ' OMG JOSH LOOK AT THIS GIRL, is she pretty? :D '

NO , he said

thn im like . WHUUT U BLIND. i dont wanna talk to u

thn i show agn

again again and againn. until he behtahan

in the end he exploded XD

HAHAH

he was like ''NOT PRETTYYY!! OKAY OKAY YEAAH OMG SHE DAMN PRETTY WOW!! walao susan thooo i dont wanna talk to you anymore!! "

HAH! end up still talk to me riteeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee x)

heheheh. fun fun :p

actually i dont think they're really thaaaaaaaat pretty la

wanted to ejek and get opinions niaa. XD

RESEARCH :D

thn i spammed his wall infront of him XD

ohh, thn righttttttttt ...

waaah, at dk. this kid super lanc. o.o

beh than

leon tahan until siao

josh exploded XD

tw stopped him but tw also cant control himself

IM THE ONLY ONE WHO IS CALMED . mhmmm :)

hok yeh la lei deii :P

crazy fella , u shud go back to court and give him GAO FAN. XD

HAHAHA

DAI LOU LEI JOR =x

thn er. yumcha at NK. xD

thn tw teman me wait bus

thn yeah

crazy fella u dumb dumb , ur car passed by us but u went quite far away

infront XD

thn errrrrrrrr.. reached home at 1030 wthhhh. so late so tired :(

kk thats all.

hahahha

eh crazyy fella, leave something in the cbox la damnit! xD

ciao ciao ! :D

dear life , stop being a jerk would u?

shits happened, i dun wanna talk about it

im so freakking stressed up and im gonna explodeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

yeah watever

im freakking done here .

dun wanna end up telling everyone what happened.

ciao

fml .

明明很想哭，却还在笑。

明明很在乎，却装作无所谓。

明明很想留下，却坚定的说要离开。

明明很痛苦，却偏偏说自己很幸福。

明明忘不掉，却说已经忘了。

明明放不下，却说他是他，我是我。

明明舍不得，却说我已经受够了。

明明说的是违心的假话，却说那是自己的真心话。

明明眼泪都快溢出眼眶，却高昂着头。

明明已经无法挽回，却依旧执着。

明明知道说这样的话会伤害他，却忍着心疼装作轻松的说出口。

明明知道自己很受伤，却说你不必觉得欠我的。

明明这样『伪装』着很累，却还得依旧…

不知道什么时候，
自己变了这么伤感，只知道，
为什么我活的这么累，
身边的人，
身边的事，
有时候无法面对自己，
每天重复着同样的生活，
我常常一个人来来去去，
不知道什么时候，
习惯了一个人，
喜欢了一个人，
不知道什么时候，
爱上了安静。
爱上了沉默。
是否自己已经变了，
是时间变了，
也许，
我一直以为自己是个很坚强的人，
但其实我没有想像中的那么坚强把，
我喜欢，
把泪葬在心里，
我要微笑面对任何一件突如其来的事。
有时候，
突然见从梦里惊醒，
然后莫名奇妙的想大哭。
一切都是莫名其妙。
身边的人来来去去，
我埋着头，
感受他们身上淡淡的味道。
为何都带有丝丝忧愁。
我希望生活简单。
讨厌复杂。

但是现在的生活也不复杂，
为何却让我
讨厌，
厌恶，
恶心。
忘记了什麽时候，
习惯了独自一个人，

内心很脆弱。
也许发生在我们身边的是是非非。
我只有保持沈默。
心里好难受．
心里好疼好疼。
觉得心里好委屈？
总告诉自己要坚强，要忍
却眼泪还是不争气的掉了，
掉下的是泪？却心里有说不出的滋味！
是那么的疼？那么的心酸！

第一次觉得自己像行尸走肉一样？
没有思想！没有灵魂？
觉得自己好堕落/
想逃避这样的生活

想过离开！可我不能！
我过的并不快乐！也不幸福
我拼命的想幸福！可幸福却离我越来越远？
我哭了，谁知道？

疲乏来的太快了！双眼越来越沉，把全身都放松，跟着月光进入甜美的梦乡……

来到梦的世界，在这里，你是属于我的。天地的一切都要遵从我，冰爽的感觉由然而升……

当被意识深处唤醒的时候，我却发现周围的一切是那么的冷清……

暮然间抬起头，我想起了远方的你，好久不见，你还好吗？

我好想你……

忘不了就别逼自己

过去了就过去了，成长，只是时间流失的借口。如果烦恼可以停止，那成长就也可以停止。

时间，好残忍。好可怕。带走得就这样带走了。一直报着回忆过日子的人，很可悲不是吗？但是，人生就这样一直向前走，一直不回头。也一定会栽跟头，走冤枉路，还有迷路哦。没有云朵的天空，天空该是何等寂寞，没有天空的云朵，云朵该去那里漂泊。

希望独自一人，走在满是阳光的下，开心得没心没肺得笑。又希望有那么一个知心好友，可以陪伴在我左右。让风拂过脸颊，舔着冰激凌，收集枫叶，看雪······

毕业，是不可避免的分别。感伤是不可避免的心情。再见是不可避免的的话语。但我觉得真的过去的就过去了，伤心有害健康，我要开开心心的，和大家说再见。至少我会灿烂得笑着，很潇洒的挥手。要哭也是躲到没人的时候。嗯，我会很坚强，至少我要小给你看！忽忽。

HIIIIIIII

oh haai :)

im sorry for not updating.

srsly, i have no freakking idea what to write

i just randomly came up and yeaah.

post up some rubbish la

hahaha

at least bettter than nothing right =P

OKAAY, so.........

hmm.

ntg much la

im dead tiredddddd ~

but still smiling. haha

god knows why la =)

okay okay im done.

GOODNIGHTT! :D

x

one day, when i stopped

will u realised it?