I'll always love you.

its been raining ever since you.. 

i often close my eyes
and i can see u smile
you reach out for my hand
and im woken from my dream
although ur heart is mine
its hollow inside
i never had ur love
and i never will

and every night
i lie awake
thinking maybe you'd love me
like i've always loved you
but how can u love me
like i loved u when
you cant even look me straight in my eyes

i've never felt this way
to be so in love
to have someone there
yet feel so alone
arent you supposed to be
the one to wipe my tears
the one to say that
you would never leave

the water calm and still
my reflection is there
i see u holding me
but then u disappear
all that is left of you
is a memory
on that only
exists in my dream

i dont know what hurts you
but i can feel it too
and it just hurts so much
to know that i cant do a thing
and deep down in my heart
somehow i just know
that no matter what
i'll always love you.

when i drift to sleep
i see u next to me
you try to hold me tight
i realized its all a dream
i thought ur heart was going to be all mine
i feel empty without you

every moment, i lie and dream
hoping u want me at least as much as i do you
cant explain this feeling that i hold inside
but i hope someday you will chg ur mind

i didnt want it to go
it was so close to love
to have u right there
then feel so alone

you were supposed to be my everything
the one to keep me same
im crazy to think that
i look back at the last time i saw u
i see u holding me
then slowly fade away

all that is left of you is a memory
of that day i once felt glad

i dont know what went wrong
but im sure neither do you
tried hard to keep it from going bad like it did
maybe one day you will see how much you need me

just like i need you, yes baby i do

I hate the fact that I can never hate you

6.43pm, finally home.
outing with ky and nat was fun
neway session :P
its been quite a while since i updated about whats happening
on my daily life though

im so tired.

if you are ready to come in my dream then im ready to sleep forever

Never should've let you go
Never found myself at home
Ever since that day that you walked
Right out the door

You were like my beating heart
That I, I can't control
Even though we've grown apart
My brain cant seem to let you go

Thinking back to the old times
When you kept me up late at night
We use to mess around
Laugh and play, fuss and fight

Since youve moved on
You took a piece of me give it back
So much pain in my chest
Blacking out, heart attack

Promise me, you wont let anyone hurt you
Remember, I will always be here for you
Even if it kills me to see you

Someone like you.

I heard that you're settled down
That you found a girl and you're married now.
I heard that your dreams came true.
Guess she gave you things I didn't give to you.

Old friend, why are you so shy?
Ain't like you to hold back or hide from the light.

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded
That for me it isn't over.

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I beg
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead,
Yeah.

You know how the time flies
Only yesterday was the time of our lives
We were born and raised
In a summer haze
Bound by the surprise of our glory days

Nothing compares
No worries or cares
Regrets and mistakes
They are memories made.
Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?

I hope someday we'll be strong enough to fight for what we feel.

我有記憶以來 我就期望 能擁有愛 觸摸到愛

也知道我的雙手 空無一物 就因為愛總進不來

我從沒得到愛 就先闖開 勇敢去愛  突破難關

我雖然也受傷了 再站起來 別讓自己感受傷害

或許是種折騰 但我相信著

只要還活著 愛就存在著

有人說我太傻了 太愚蠢 因為我不會怕有傷痕

總是允許別人 用自我保護做基本

直到那個人 傷我到完整 就放棄維護自己的責任

Reasons

總是不敢要太多 總是覺得自己還不夠
可是為什麼 看見你對她的問候會心痛

最想說就別管我 我沒事的只是太衝動
轉了身的我 一步一步告訴自己 要往前走

勇敢說出我想要的理由 勇敢享受愛情中的溫柔
我在害怕些什麼
勇敢說出我愛你的理由 勇敢接受愛情中的脆弱
能不能夠說出口 讓我勇敢溫柔

我不想閃躲 或裝做不在乎放棄自我
我想那並不是我

xing fu.

幸福生活是人人追求的。
幸福的定义也许是同样的，但追求的目标却大不相同，
幸福的内涵也各不相同，幸福的感受更是各人不同。
瞎子能看到世界，会觉得幸福；
朝不保晚的穷汉，能吃一顿饭，那是幸福；
两地分居的夫妻，能够团聚，也是幸福。。。

人生几十年，如白驹过隙。
过了不惑，人生过半，看到了太多的生离死别，
感觉自己也一步一步迈向坟墓，你会领悟到生命的珍贵，
人生的真谛：开心的活着，就是幸福！

Just because I haven't called you out on your lies yet, doesn't mean I haven't noticed.

Never be ashamed of falling in love.
It's the greatest compliment u can pay someone.

Patience gives us strength. It gives us a reason to keep waiting.
Yes, certain things are worth waiting for.
Missing you is not what I do best. It's what I do most.
That little time I spent with you made my whole world changed.
But, sometimes ignoring the problem is the only solution to solve a problem.
I can't talk to you anymore , i won't talk to you anymore.
I acted like it wasn't a big deal, when really it was breaking my heart.
I may be a person of few words, but I mean what I say, and say what I mean.
We don't know the value of our moments until they become a memory.
Sad but true.

you should’ve known

im still alive but im barely breathing.

和你相約在這裡
有些事想說明 我的決定
妳卻不願意聽

我知道你想要逃避
不想問不想聽 這段感情
已經快要暫停

聽我說 從今後 我會一個人生活
沒有我 的時候 你要一個人好好過

在我轉身之後 你卻又抱著我
在放手以後 不再擁有 彼此的溫柔

在我轉身之後 你的淚不停流
雖然心很痛 卻只能說 分開以後 我就要遠走

I’ll leave you alone, Just like what you wanted

愛那麼多 傷害更多
做那麼多 寂寞更多
我以為你就是結果 以為溫柔就不痛
但 我 錯了

話都說了 心也縮了
靈魂掏了 夢也塌了
如果不能讓你懂得 不能讓你快樂
那麼我 放了

我還給你 自由
趁我現在還能夠 感同身 受
誰讓 最愛你的人是我

有愛又有什麼用處
又不是這樣就不孤獨
還是那麼輸
又在你的世界荒蕪
留下來也沒有前途
不如 我們曾 那麼 幸福

我在沉默 你在沉重
我在失落 你在失重
我們不再習慣遷就 現在喜歡追究
最後我 懂了

淚在回憶掙扎 淚為遺憾蒸發
我許下的天堂 你不要的天堂
我無法承受 你紅了眼眶

when the time comes and we finally realize that we want to get serious..love plays with us

在黑暗
曾经伸手碰到你温柔的脸
我以为
那是给我忘记痛苦的滋味

你说我很美
拨动到你内心的潮水

无所谓
只怕你会突然
消失在天黑

期待你
能送我美丽的玫瑰
安抚我心灵里的憔悴

我们是恋爱的人
我们是相爱的人
你却是相爱双爱伤到我的灵魂

原来你的世界
已经有了爱的人
为什么还要我的加温

你牵着她的灵魂
你抱着我的泪痕
我以为我是你
唯一最爱的情人

有了她
我们只能到此不再相闻
各自寻找所谓的人生

Think about what we have done. This mess, who to blame?

假装开玩笑
假装以为不主导
假装爱就要 爱的很上道
连吵都懒得吵

把合照都杀掉
单纯的当爱杀掉
帮我换一刻 空白的大脑
把美好都取消

我不听白头偕老的口号
我不要长生不老
我不想自己活在冰岛
而灵魂 就算能 和灵魂对调
心还是换不掉


拨的是空号
现在收不到讯号
回忆全自动 循环地洗脑
重拨著无间断
逆时空的隧道
像三十秒的广告
要用一百年的骨气来抵消
三秒胶的拥抱


我不管天荒地老的老套
我不让天使为我祷告
而永恒不过让我自编自导
我宁愿被手铐
也不要止痛药


痛没有止痛药

Im never moving.

剩下三個星期天
這個時限 一切還原
在這四方的空間
還有一點 對你的想念

失去意志確定
你已離我而去
才發現一切來不及

剩下半杯的可樂
一口喝完捨不得
或許你開始後悔了
會不會呢 厭倦了推測

其實也已經無所謂
壞的好的都已枯萎
而殘忍的是我
對自己太認真
忘了忘記關於你的所有

而失序的是我
五十次的悔過
有些習慣無法掙脫
而剩下的是我
五十次的悔過
有些習慣無法掙脫

有想法又能怎樣 只能寫部落格整晚 

幾個留言安慰不了心裡的遺憾

几个月过去了 那时的你还有在乎

那现在呢

I always hold back whenever im making a decision.

不在乎的口吻
掩飾我的認真
我再三的確認
感情有沒有變冷

你說我沒變過
孩子氣才最像我
你把近況輕輕帶過
如此寂寞

你還是一個人
快不快樂
好像又比從前瘦了
或許你已覺得無所謂
錯過了追不回
為甚麼要 讓自己累

我們都不完美
怎麼追求完美
剩下這一點體會
填補空位


我還是一個人
繼續生活
也沒有特別的難過
只是夜裡偶爾想起了
那過去太深刻
多捨不得 怎能忘了

好像有些甚麼
話到嘴邊又吞了
我們聊聊別的
就要走了
希望你是真的快樂
祝你快樂

happy bday, mummy.

I hope you are having a wonderful birthday party in heaven, Mom.
I love you and miss you.
Wishing u were here to hold me and tell me every things gonna be alright.
The one thing i miss the most is saying mummy i love you

I stand and stare up at the stars, wondering which one you are.
A tear runs down my cheek..mommy are you there and are you thinking of me too?
Imy, so much so much.

God, please take care of my mother as wonderfully as she took care of me.
Make sure she is loved and happy..
It is what she always gave to me.

Misses.

When I look up to the stars,
I remember how special you are and how much I miss you.

Mommy, will the tears ever dry?
I ask this as I wipe my eyes.
I'm told in time.
But I don't think so.
I wasn't ready to let you go.
I can hear you laughing in heaven, I can see you dancing through the clouds.
4 years have passed and the pain is still the same, I've just learned how to hide it better these days. I love you mum and shall you rest in eternal peace .

God saw you was getting tired and a recovery was not meant to be so he put his arms around you and whispered come home with me.

I'm pretty sure I didn't meet you just for nothing

一句对不起，让我们的爱败给了时间，败给了距离。

或许时间和距离都是借口吧，不爱了才是真正的理由。

可是你为什么不和我说实话，为什么还要给我那么多好听的理由？

其实，只要你一句不爱了，我就会放手，我会给你自由，让你去追你的幸福。

只是，不要骗我，我要的不是你假装还爱我。

Alone with my thoughts

What a stupid wednesday weih -.-

i wore pj shirt to school today HAHAHA

i went to school, then i saw ruen.

i was like " eh ru en, who is doing chinese oral today? "

then she was like, today is wednesday la hello, no chinese class. 

i was like oh shit LOL

wrong books wrong uniform. ahahahha

i stayed back for chinese class smore, the heck. 

lame lame, too lame. xD 

okay i dont feel like going school tomorrow

pn anisha taking over pjk, means we have 4 periods of chem -_- can dai

sure miss alot one, haih whatever la xD 

waiting like nuts at ou now, for brother 

his work until 10pm zomg. late late

就在最脆弱的時候　想起你了

Dilemma ;

Hi :) i have no idea what to blog about

nothing seems interesting anymore
nothing seems to inspire me anymore

life's getting boring

i started my antisocial life in school 

i sleep from 1st period to 6th period everyday LOL 

i wonder how i do that weih seriously

im so sick of school life 

classes are getting boring, teachers are getting annoying

sigh, thats all for now i guess

finals in one week time, wish me luck
i don't think i can do this , not anymore

till then ; 

And I wonder why, we both walked away ;

每个人都会受伤，重点是受伤后，
要懂得如何为自己包扎伤口。

快乐的人并不是没有烦恼，而是善于排除烦恼，

化消极为积极心态，不是每个人活着都是一帆风顺的，

遇到任何事情要乐观对待，这一秒不放弃下一秒就会有奇迹的人生。

快乐无所不在，自得其乐是最保险和最恒久的快乐，

只要时常保持心境开朗，快乐是难舍弃你的

昨日已過的事，今天不再回頭。

但是将来的事，可以更用心些，做得比以前更好；

已走过的踪迹無法倒回，已說過的話也無法唤回。

我们無法把舊事重做一遍，但是以後可以做得更好些。

懂的让自己快乐,那才是真的。

做人一定要经得起谎言，受得起敷衍，

忍得住欺骗，忘得了诺言，

放得下一切，最后用笑来伪装掉下的眼泪，

要记住越是忍住泪水，越会变成幸福的良药。

别人再好，也是别人。

自己再不堪，也是自己，独一无二的自己。

只要努力去做最好的自己，一生足矣。

抓狂時，我就說，好啦，做人這回事，我還沒畢業。

Cause once upon a time, u were exactly what I wanted ;

尋遍天下，就為了你那傘下的笑臉。

当你觉得处处不如人时，不要自卑，记得你只是平凡人。

当别人忽略你时，不要伤心，每个人都有自己的生活，谁都不可能一直陪你。

当你看到别人在笑时，不要以为世界上只有你在伤心，
其实别人只是比你懂得掩饰。

当你很无助时，你可以哭，但哭过后必须振作起来，
即使输了一切，也不要输掉微笑

你要幸福。不然我会很后悔当初让你得到你想要的自由。

mistake

以为我，没有你，还有很多。

为什么，为什么，也不想错。

错了，便­离开，就没有带走 你承诺，我的执着。

以为怀念会难过，原来遗忘更寂寞，原来我不要­解脱。

以为我会怨恨你，想不到越恨越想你，爱情太幽默。

反正已经­把回忆当收获，反正一切都是太爱你的错，错就错。

我以为你付出不­够我多，不适合就分手只是瞎说。

都错了，想起来，不值得相处。

走­下去谁会幸福？

误会了你的心事­，才错过你的温柔。

误会了只要相爱，就代表一切。

以为在一起的时­候最懂你，原来分开才明白爱是什么。

我错了，我认错，错就错。

♥

只要能夠這樣遠遠看著你

就算傷心心裡還是好想你

只要能夠靜靜這樣陪著你

就算分手還是選擇喜歡你

我好希望整個地球只剩下我和你

我就能勇敢的說我還愛你

我好希望我會忘記說再見的聲音

我不再回憶也不再傷心

I keep dreaming you'll be with me and you'll never go.

Nais saturday :) woke up quite late hahaha
Breakfast tuition dinner drama sleep.
JUST WOKE UP LOL, Gudmorning :D

Its 21st tomorrow, should i keep my promise or leave it ? 

不用等你开口先说我爱你
在那之前先对你说我愿意
你不必问你也不必等
这一刻就值得爱到永恒


我该如何让你明白我爱你

Can’t stand to feel this way.

Don't know what the future holds for me,
but I'll enjoy every little things that come my way.

This time I turn around
Things have changed
Now I don’t feel the same

Now I don’t see things the way I did before
Things I felt yesterday don’t matter anymore
It doesn’t make any sense to feel so different day to day
When nothings changed except for me

Destiny.

It was meant to be.

Told u i was wrong from the start , but u stopped me from turning back
Why did you knocked my heart and stayed there for a while
When you know you are gonna leave me one day?

Who knew forgetting you would be this hard.

All you have to do is just say the word and
I'll walk away out of your life forever.

DONE eng comprehension.
11 questions about love and life.
Im quite happy with my answers. teeeeehe.
K bed time. hahaha.
Nights !

Tomorrow will be a better day.

It isn't that we grew apart, it's that I grew up.

When I was young I laughed less but there was infinite hidden happiness.
As I grew up I learnt to laugh a lot to hide the unspoken sadness.

Bedroom makeover :D
Hahahaha. my bedroom too cute. :P
The only problem with my room is the curtain -.-
Home sweet home curtain, lameeeeeeee.
Im gonna get a black one soon. tehe.
EMO bedroom. cheh. hahha

Before you leave, can I at least know why?

“Silence is the best sound ever.
 Nothing is said. Everything is understood.”

Wooooh, its friday friday :P
Hahahaha. i damn hyper in school today
Class was boringggggggg, didnt skipped at all
Stone in class for the whole day , seriously can die. ahaha

Went to tuition after school , like finally xD
Tuition was fun la hahaha .
After tuition ou , thn ikano , thn go home
Reached home around 11pm

Continue drama hahaah.
Halfway slept
Skype was still on, with candy. LOL
Woke up at 1.30am to off my comp xD
I mean, off my pps. hahaha

My msn dead dy woi LOL
Never sign in at all
I uninstalled it but i realised i will need it one day
So yeah, i re-downloaded it xD
REALISED BEFORE ITS TOO LATE YOW. XP

It only hurts when you start pretending it doesn't..

The best camera in the world is one's eyes.
The most beautiful photos are memories.

It rained this morning , damn nice :)
Perhimpunan was cancelled, we went back to class around 730
Talked to veron about..stuffs that are going to happen.
It's been quite a time since we last talked.. as in serious stuffs

Went to bball court around 8
Ron slept when i came back -_- hahaha. oh wells, typical ron :)
Went back to class, i don't remember what i did. hahaha. oh, chem class
We went to the lab :) did some work.. and 3 experiments.

Then i went back to Kempas again, to wake ron up LOL
At first when i pass by kempas , i was like " RON! wake up dei. rehat rehat."
All she gave me was a peace sign -.- she didnt get up.
So yeah, i didnt really bother la haha.
I went back to class and leave my books
Then i wanted to wake her up again
So i went to kempas again , && i was like " RON ! "
And guess what? she was right infront of me LOL
DAMN EPIC.

After recess bio , i stayed back in class for peka.
HAO RAJIN AM I.
Done peka , back to lab , pass it up , go back to class again.
Then BI class , i got 87% for english :P
After english was sejarah, i nearly slept. HAHAHA.
SORRY MORRY. :D

12.45pm! loceng berbunyi :D
Stayed back for chinese class , until 2.45pm
Came home, i slept again . LOL
Woke up at 550 , tuition , came back , dinner. xD

I DAMN FREE WOI SERIOUSLY.
Kanasai , i need a life. xD

BACK TO DRAMAAAAA! 3 more eps! hehehe
Aku sangat happy. XD
AND AND, its friday tmr ! :D
Saturday tuition cancelled. hehehehe.
Aku cinta pada weekends
Mereka sangat sexy LOL


wo hen kai xing ah :D

Believe in second chances, you might have missed something the first time around

 If you're not gonna change your attitude
You are going to be on your own, you are gonna do this alone.

:) Pn wong came to our class today, she took over sivic's class.
Unfortunately, almost everyone cant attend her class
We (uniform bodies) have to go down and run morning's meeting.
And make sure everything runs smoothly.

Pbsm, we had our formal installation this morning, around 830-1030
Skipped bio, mod maths, addmaths and bm.
Everything was so screwed up this morning.
I got nothing to say, seriously.
I'll just close one eye and let them do what they think is right.
Overall it was okay lah, everyone has their own mistakes
Including me.
We just gotta learn from it i guess.
Have to really get used to our "BOD system"
How we work together as a team and stuffs.

Last meeting was alright :)
I planned two games , it was FUN :P i guess. hahahaha
WET WET DAY WOOH. 

Tell me what do you do, when it all falls apart

Enough, now tell me the truth.

Its funny how we try to move on and at the same time, hold on

I woke up late this morning, wanted to skip school ahaha.
Sigh, i slept the whole day in class.
Skipped Moral and Mod maths, went to Kempas :)
Pn Lim was (Y) la hahaha.
She was so happy today :P
She didnt realised im a Cengal student. wooh
I was emoing with jin.

I went back to class after Moral, continue sleeping.
LIFELESS SIAL. -_-
Until the last period. loool.

Went home, continue sleeping hahaha.
Freakking tired zz.
Woke up around 6.30
I was like " oh shit its 9am?! dang i skipped school again."
I was wondering why daddy didnt wake me up or something. hahaha
And it really feels like 9am in the morning. Damn lame.
Then i checked the time LOL i laughed. haha.

Then yeah, candy called. 6:50pm
Until now :D hahaha.
She's washing her hair now, damn lame omg.

OKAAY back to drama hahaha.
Wooh im addicted :P
Gonna do addmaths homework later.
FINAL'S RESULTS, MUST BE GOOD.
Must be better, at least. Heee.

K CIAO CINCAO.
Ciao miao :P

but sorry doesn't turn back time



Promises are meant to be broken.

MONDAY, ohoh. another boring day at school hahahaha.
Puasa month started todaaay ! :P
School ends at 12.45, 20mins earlier. not much difference laah -_-

Btw, some teacher/lecturer from New Zealand came to our school today :D
Pn.N was damn mean -.-
She was giving a speech during assembly, as usual lah. in BM
One of the visitors - Ms. Helen, She actually understands BM
She stood up when Pn N called their names.
But Mr.Paul didnt know about it, and Pn. N was like " oh dia tak faham "
HAHAHAHA LMAOS.
DAMN MEAN! kns. hahahaha


Then i went basketball court :P
Yeah, with my uniform.
Damn hard to play with uniform weih lololol.
&& i went in class ON TIME. (after skipping two and a half period)
Pn R was like " susan you're lucky u came in on time, if not you'll be in the ponteng list "
PHEW. jin hoe was late 2mins :P kena ponteng! HAHAHA
SAD.

School ends, went home, slept.
Went out at 2.30.
IKEA's MEATBALLS :DD
&& Movie with adrian and suo leng :)
Wu xia was not bad weih hahaha.
The front part was KINDA, KINDA boring la hahha
I KINDA, slept. hehehe.
But the ending was awesome. (Y)
Damn chunted! ahhaha. chigek sial. funny too xD

Then TC, met up with Ning :)
Sohai weih hahaha.
Damn long never study with him dy.
Wong Kok session! :D

After TC, went ss2 Pasar Malam with jy, ctc, adrian and wai.
Dinner at home :D

Watching the other truth now hahaha.
HK drama seriously too nais :P
Damn long never bou drama dy, too busy.

Everything has finally come to an end.
No more events going on dy :D
WOOH ♥

time to rest :)

boyimissyou.

SMKDU BSMM INSTALLATION NIGHT ! :)

It was fun :)
We played chubby bunny
It was damn funny
I laughed my ass off weih hahahaha

Thanks alot for coming, Dj and Taman Sea bsmm member
You guys rocks to the max :)
Loves ! :D

I know how it felt.

To be treated this way.
Im really sorry for you. you deserved so much better.
All i can say is experience means nothing, its ur ability that matters the most. :)


:) went to ou just now. helen bought new shoes hahaha.
I bought new slippers -_- thanks man yi shen. grr.
Not so nice, i regretted :(
I wanted Ipanema! 9 bucks difference only.
Sigh sigh, heart pain dei.
I should have went Studio-R before Vincci.
Oh wells...... :(

AND Ohemgeee im so gonna buy that Nike bag weihh :P
My WC bag died hahahah.
Time to get money money money , ching ching :D
189 bucks !

Okay im damn sleepy now.
Bedtime !
Nights :) hahahaha.

 I didnt see you today 

where were you? 

I wonder

I went to see u again, today.
I remember I used to see you everyday :)
Until beginning of this year, I stopped.
Things has changed sigh.
I dont see what I saw in you anymore.
I hope it will come back one day.

I remember you left for a few months
I went everyday but I didn't see u at all
I nearly gave up.
But then I saw u again..
You're back :)

I wonder how long will you be there..
What if you left?
Will u be back again?
I'll be waiting :)


Bu ke yi fang qi !




陌生人，我想你了。。

I feel like giving up on everything.

Hi :)
First day of exam.
It was quite okay la heh
Wasn't that bad :)
I think I'm gonna fail addmaths again hahaha
Dear finals, pls be good to me :)

Wooh.whole camp lagging like shit now
I'm blogging using Ipad now.
Ah so much better.
My comp is dying. Time to reformat.

This time i won't back up any files anymore.
It's pointless.
Chatlogs,photos.. They're just memories.
They will soon fade away :)

What's the point keeping memories?
I mean, u create them everyday right :)

There must be reasons why.

如果有一天，我不再是我，怎么办？
I'm starting to lose myself..

Decisions

Hi. :)
Yeap, I skipped school again. Studying chem now.
Can die weih seriously.

Ahhhhh jiayou ah Susan tho!
Study study study.
Must.be.the.best!:)

Sigh. From Aug onwards cannot skip class d
Busy month is overrrrr. Hopefully sigh.
I don't wanna be like this :(
confirm fail Spm weih like this. Damn shit
I dont want it to happen lo :/

Daddy is worried about me.
Sigh..I feel bad :(


我开始不相信自己了
The dark side of me is taking over.



Off le, ciaoses.

Best of the best .

I love you bestf ! Love to the max :)

CandyL <3 :)

LOL

AHHAHA okay. my previous post was really serious.
so not me weih :/
btwwwwww.  i failed :D hahaha
failed to study xD
im watching the other truth now. wooh nais nais.
too funny. laugh die me. XD

im back to blogging world :D
gonna start spamming
tadaaaaaa.

k back to drama. ciaoses. :D

hehehehe, means i skipped school for nothing.

sorry daddy! 

test

July test is here :)

all i can say is time flies 

half of my form4's life is gone 

and im kinda happy how it went.. actually. 

That night, it was so cold
my hand was shaking, my body was shivering.
i was waiting for an answer..
an answer for the question that keeps me wondering all the time.
all these time, i was guessing if my answer was the real answer.
finally, i found out the truth.
its not a guess but truth.
it was spilled out accidentally by someone. i was there.
thank you friend :) you helped me alot.
i was stupid.

Before i go to bed, i was thinking.. keep on thinking.
what was my mistake?
my heart..it was broken into pieces, again.
i don't feel anything.

I knew that i was wrong, and i regretted about it
but what can i do? its over now.
we should never look back, i guess.
it took me so long to find it out
i was naive. he was right. his decision to leave was right
i shouldn't stop him.
he is happy with his current lifestyle, with his current girlfriend.
i should be happy too.. for him, for them.

July, i was single for the past 4 months. 

kinda broke my record though hahahha. 

i made it :P 

had a deal with shen and aaron, im gonna be single for more than 3 months !
or 6. hmmmmmm.

nah, i'll just stay single until i found the right one again. tehe. :)

I tried giving out chances, but it won't work.
forcing myself to love someone won't work
i realised its really cruel giving out false hope
i tried to work it out, but i just can't.
i can't do this.
and so, i decided to take it back
and look forward.
im sorry. i just need time i guess.
i have to mean what i say, that's the reason why i don't say it anymore.
if i say it, i mean it.

Life's been a bitch, as usual.

problems problems and problems. 

problems that can't be solved. 

all i can do is wait, and try to work it out. 

i think i better get going

studying studying yeah ! 

ciaoses. 

唯一的一个谎言

把我自己的意志力

和梦想

全都打散了

也许

这就是人生吧？

重重复复

不停在希望与绝望之间徘徊

我真的没有勇气再走下去

我就站在这里好了

眼淚

我曾　認真　深愛著一個人　他給我幸福的可能

我等　我問　未來何時發生　他只是給我一個吻

快樂　我哭　是因為你的手　曾答應帶我向前走

難過　我哭　是因為我的手　找不到你說的以後

好眼淚　壞眼淚　我都曾為你流　感動和悲傷都是理由

只不過　在你不再愛我了以後　剩壞的眼淚慢慢流

快樂　我哭　是因為我付出　得到你溫柔的答覆

難過　我哭　是因為我認輸　你的心永遠留不住

好眼淚　壞眼淚　我都曾為你流　感動和悲傷都是理由

只希望　在我不再想你了之後　有好的眼淚慢慢流

有好的笑容陪著我

跌倒了， 失去了， 不要紧， 爬起来继续！

风雨兼程，且歌且行。

有路，才有旅途，

没有一个人会一无所有，不要让悲歌浇熄了我们的热情！

:)

its 5:00 AM now & im going to bed :)
nights all  ♥

♥

Where you are is where I want to be. 

And through your eyes all the things I want to see. 

And in the night you are my dream. 

You are everything to me.

♥

"Love hard when there is love to be had. Because perfect guys don’t exist, but there’s always one guy that is perfect for you."

Love would never leave us alone
You have to be someone
My fear is my only courage
My music will go on forever. Maybe it's a fool say that, but when me know facts me can say facts. My music will go on forever.
Every man gotta right to decide his own destiny
Open your eyes, look within. Are you satisfied with the life you're living?
One Love, One Heart, Let's get together and feel alright

I truly believe

:)

"You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She's not perfect - you aren't either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don't hurt her, don't change her, don't analyze and don't expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she's not there."


— Bob Marley

SMKDU Sports Day 2011 BSMM SL(Y)180. ♥

GREAT JOB GUYS. im so freaking proud of everyone of you :)
I didnt regret joining marching team at all , with all the trainings we have gone through
its worth it , hard work paid off !
we won in everyone's heart.
  

WE ARE GONNA WIN IT NEXT YEAR. 

definitely .

I'm happy to belong to this group of top champions having excelled here. :)

loves ! ♥

思念一个人的滋味 

像喝一杯冷的水 

然后用很长很长的时间一颗一颗流成眼泪 

忘记一个人的滋味 

像欣赏一种残酷的美 

然后用很小很小的声音告诉自己坚强面对

把從前想了一遍

謝謝了 傷我的人

想做樂觀的人 每種雨聲 聽了都不冷

我並不是天生愛寂寞 卻比任何人都多

就算把世界給我 我還是一無所有

我要快樂我要能睡的安穩

有些人不抱了才溫暖 離開了才不恨 我早應該割捨

我要快樂 哪怕笑的再大聲

心不是熱的 全都是假的

我的決定是對的

烏雲來了　星星走了

儘管我是多麼捨不得

沒有什麼是停止的

曾經熱絡　再失去聯絡

告別就是成長的　第一課

一個人等雨後的彩虹

又像灑脫又寂寞　不確定喜歡自由

一個人熬過像甦醒了

淋過雨滴的心頭　有種子又發芽了

冬天來了　秋天走了

思念不在風吹時飄了

能夠死心是種解脫

猶豫不決　去留都折磨

放棄才是堅強的　第一課 

Never will.

I learned a long time ago to never trust anyone.
So why the hell, after all this time, did I let myself trust you?

有一个人，我必须要放下。

回想以前，我真是蠢得厉害

明明是你的心先动摇了，我还选择相信。

我到底在想什么？

这一切的一切，将会成为过去。

我的心不会再为你痛。
我的泪也不会再为你流。


亲爱的自己，是时候回来了。

i don feel like myself anymore.

Deep down I knew it wouldn't last, so why does it hurt so bad?

happy mothers day ♥ :)

When i miss you at night, I look up at the stars and know that they can see you... 

I missed you. Mum  ;)

happy mothers day. ♥

♥

 When you start to miss me, just remember,
i didn't walk away, you let me go. 

take a bow.
hear the applause?
my heart is broken and you're the cause.
I played your game, and looks like you've won
congratulations, i hope you had fun.


dont bother looking for me, u wont find me.
im sorry it has to be like this
but i dont see any other way.

I SO FEEL LIKE CUTTING HAIR.

omg :( 

LOL good morning guys :)

i slept at 630, woke up at 8 :D 

i damn chunted (Y) hahaha.

kthxbai!

I have been a fool too long .

my plan is to forgive and forget .
 forgive myself for liking you so much
and forget everything. 

他會當一回事嗎?
不可能 .
多麼的諷刺.

我愿为亲人朋友笑着活下去,
宁可笑着流泪,
也不要让别人看见心中的痛.
总有人能读懂自己.

听说你有女朋友了。而且已经很久了，恭喜啦。:)

weekends!

 memories are the best thing in life to have they never change
 while everything and everybody around you does.

hohmygood finally its here :) dear saturday and sunday :)
damn, super busy saturday. urgh :(
morning : basketball tournament , sunway coll , and hari anugerah :(
i can only chooose one of them. sigh. big big sigh.
afternoon tuition, till evening.
night : st john's mk night :D

haiz. suan le. no nid go hari anugerah wan la :P
can get my cert on monday. xD
i saw my name on the board, pelajar cemerlang PMR 2010. HAHAHA.
laughmyassoff :P too funny.

shitty result also pelajar cemerlang. zadou. -.-
wohoo sunday is gonna be a (Y) DAY :D whee.
SHOBUSYLAH.

and omg, i was nerding the whole day in class :D
i feeel good xD LOL
seriously hahaha. was doing maths and chem
too much homework -.- can die !

bythewayyyy. im tired. goodnight la hahaha.
zoi gin xD

as it comes, so it goes.

 the difference about me and you is I care and you don't. 
And that hurts.

haiz. what happened to japan again?
Dear Lord, please help and comfort those affected by the earthquake and tsunami. and let our hearts open to their needs.
thank you God. amen

Laughing isn't something you do for fun. it is sometimes a relief when you badly misses someone. or an instant escape when you're hurting too much

deep.

off to bed . 

running away from reality . i'll be back 

遇到

你身上專屬的陌生味道 是我確認你存在的目標

不用來回張望了 直到今世 我們相隔著一條街角

這麼久了我還是可以看到 感覺得到你對我的重要

不會被天黑天亮打擾 你每一次的溫柔我都想炫燿

我們繞了這麼一圈才遇到 我比誰都更明白你的重要

這麼久了我就決定了 決定了 你的手我握了不會放掉

我們繞了這麼一圈才遇到 我答應自己不再庸人自擾　

因為我要的我自己知道 只要你的肩膀依然讓我靠

這麼久了我就決定了　決定了　你的手我握了不會放掉

靠近

默在你的身後守候的我　多想看你不經意的笑容

或許我的心你不懂　我會努力讓你感動

在你眼中有多麼笨拙的我　決不放棄追逐你的執著

只要你能再多些回應我　一個笑或點頭全接受

能不能再靠近一點點 不再那麼遙遠

大聲說出你所有感覺 讓我聽見

別再緊緊關在只有自己的世界　溫暖太陽為你迎接 

能不能再靠近一點點  過來我的身邊

能不能再勇敢一點點 讓我看見

就算讓我知道我永遠只是單戀　我也會藏著感謝　笑著和你說再見

hurt

苦笑都帶點痛　自從你什麼都不留給我追究

　親手裡用溫柔　交換的這一場惡夢

baby why would you hurt me so long?

這一個人不該是我

Please let me know

難過是你留給我的線索

莫非我的舉動　成了你的苦衷

才暗示我的所有　你寧願沒有經過

愛預付得太多　不是沒有想過　最愚笨的會是我

being tired is tiring.

TAN SKIN! my goodness. 

tired tired tired. went for duty again :) MSSD FOOTBALL. U-15. damn sat mong man i tell you hahaha.
i wanna watch U-18 , not 15 :( LOL.
sunburnt kao kao. x2 x3 x4 x5..x10 . i look like an indian now :D whee.
so tan. omigosh. xD


im hungry . LOL

:)

我从来都没有后悔过，爱上你这个事实。

谢谢你的美好，我永远都不会忘掉。

If

if i were to make a decision again, i'll make the same decision. im not giving up. i will repeat everything all over again. even if the ending is like this, even if it hurts me like hell. because i'm a damn stubborn girl. because i didnt regret it, not even a lil bit. i just wish it didnt ended this way. 

just like what you told me last time. if you were to make a decision again, you will choose to love me, again.

dont hope for forever, remember what you had. 

thank you for all the memories.
thank you for loving me.
you're the best thing that has ever happened to me :)
thank you :)



iloveu. 

tired

why is it so hard to fake a smile? hahaha sigh. im tired.
trying so hard to be positive. im so gonna positive-lize myself
must be positive :P just like Na Mg and Al :P hahaha.

:)

:D

MSSD day 5 :) i went stadium after school ahahaha.
go get my fone from denise. :)
chigek weih omg hahhaa. i finally get to cheer :P cause im not wearing uni :D
so yeah, i cheered for SJKC SUNGAI BULOH HAHAHAHA.
shit i feel bad, my bai xiao junior is just right behind sg buloh :/
so i was like , GO SG BULOHH, whoops, BAI XIAO JIA YOUUUUUUUUU~
hahaha. it was fun la yesterday :)

fuisyeah wys on uni4. eleh macam macam yes :P
and jzjzjz, our future tukang urut woi, kai semo wan xiao ahahahh.

after that i nid ciao for tuition
suddenly damn alot ppl pokkai -.-
so ya, i went and help lah. without uniform omg shit haha.
thn ciao to tuition
eww counter pain masih kat tangan saya. damn smelly omg :( bu xi huan.

hohoho first aid (Y) damn nais. hahaha.
im in love with this job ( as a first aider ) :D

BSMM DUTY :D

day 4 :)

last day of duty hahaha. skipped four days :) i damn smart man -.- zz. hahaha
bytheway :) station 2 again! hahaha :D

nais nais :P whee. aaron same group with me again hahaha.
what a lame station members -.-
X.E AND AARON. DAMN LAME ZZ.

i was damn lame , at first lah.
after that i damn tired d. shut up lo
thn they zha me with their new lame skill.
walao. i wanna die already hahaha.
so yah :P i went to station one after that. beh tahan.

ohhhhhhhhhhh nate came :P whee. hahaha
and lol this morning, damn funny.
i was the first one who reached stadium. so i went online lo.
thn everyone came, i was waving to aaron, and showed him the peace sign
and the guy infront of him was like staring at me, and he said hi. LOL
thn i walked to him (aaron)
thn the guy was like walking to my direction LOL

i was like o.o err. hahaha
thn he was like , hi.. u cant recognize me?
im like err noo. sorry hahaha.
thn he was like hahaha its okay.

haiyor, i really wanna know who is it weih.
TELL ME WHO ARE YOU IF YOURE READING THIS. xD
like seriously. hahaha i need to know who are you. :(
I FEEL DAMN BAD D: lolol.


k i damn hungry now. bathe thn eat thn slp :P
back to school tomorrow :D

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NINJAAA

im a ninja. HAAHAHA. yeah cause. i always sneak into people's house last time. TSK TSK. sigh sigh hahaha.

hoohmygod both brother came into my room just now -.-
I HAVE NO IDEAA WHYYY
i was sleeping and the door was locked D:
wth right. hahaha. stupid ninjas.

i miss being a ninja. HAIZ. hahahaha

.

i dont really know what to think now , its like none of my business , but i care. 

hahaha . sigh

BSMM DUTY :D

day 3 :)

still station 2. LOL three days straight weih. crazeh :)
just reached home thou, belum bathe. eww. :x
haha by the way today was okay lah :/
was quite emo haih. dont ask me why i dont know.
weather too chilling d. 23 degree c only xD

nothing much about today lah. got funny part also la hahaha.
jo ee turned him on today. HAAHHA. keeep on rubbing babeh.
lmaooooo.


oh wellzzzzz ~ damn tired.
i better go bathe thn go to bed d lah. tired tired :/
bye :)

AHHHH wo yao ipod touch 4g :DDDD